Comfort.
These April days have been so beautiful. The smells and new blooms of the spring have brought back sweet memories of my past.
It's amazing how you can close your eyes and instantly a smell can bring you to a memory.
These April showers have made me feel relaxed and comfortable.
Something about the green grass and trees and beautiful flowers all around; they make the rain fall so gracefully. The smell of the fresh cut grass and the spring rain always bring me back to my youth and when days were carefree. When life was lived through a child's eyes.
As I'm aging (only by number) I'm noticing life happening before me.
How being an adult is showing life's realism's.
While the girls and I visited Marc on the island we were just living.
We had nothing to worry about. No school, no bills , no chores.
We were just existing there with Marc. That's all we had been wanting to do for a long time.
It was so refreshing. Our trip was extended longer than planned out too, due to care trouble that was easily fixed. The extension made life slow down, and for three extra days on a beautiful island, I
Couldn't complain, I had everything I needed.
Marc arrived home Wednesday April 24th, Reese's 1st birthday; which was another graceful milestone in this household.
He has been sick since Monday, April 22nd, with what he thinks was food poisoning. We went to the ER Thursday, due to his state of illness. He had been vomiting since Monday night on to Thursday until after the IV took place. Since then he's been outrageously nauseous and in bed, by no other choice, he can't even bring himself to watch tv. And in the morning he has started to feel better, so he's tried to eat, only to find the couple bites consumed, have made him feel worse. So it's going on a week of not actually eating.
Tomorrow, Monday, we are going to see his Dr. And from there we hope to be referred to a GI specialist. Whatever it is, whatever it's doing to make him so vulnerable and sick, I hope they find it quickly and are able to sooth him.
It is so unsettling to see him in this state. All I can do is make him as comfortable as I possibly can. Massages, back rubs, cuddles and an on call very loving nurse is the least I can do for him.
Whoever may read my posts, or even the spiritual guidance I look to in my times of need, please hear me now and pray or send positive energy this way to Marc.
The comforts of loved ones and small tokens of comfort found outside of love are what is guiding him along.
Whatever it is that is causing him this pain, please subside and please be known so he can go further than this terrible journey from this week, and from his history of vomiting sicknesses.
In our house right now I'm trying to keep everyone and everything comfortable while my husband is vulnerable and my daughters' daddy is sick in bed. Keeping Riley busy is helping to distract my mind from the what ifs and all the research I have been eagerly doing.
Positive energy for comfort and good thoughts for outcome. <3
