All you Need is Time

Time, sweet time. Oh how I long for more of you...
Every day I think about saving a time for me to get to the computer and write! It seems as though time slips away from me so fast in a 24 hr time period.  I know everyone has a busy life and people everywhere are in demand for more time, I guess that's life.  

My time is spent here at my office, my home. Tending to my girls and house chores keeps me busy enough, I wish I had a little more time to tend to me. I have to interrupt now to get back to work, excuse me.... 

I'm back. Reese needed a nap and I got to shower! ;-) how refreshing.

Ready for bath!

Time. What is time?

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Time is a dimension in which events can be ordered from the past through the present into the future, and also the measure of durations of events and the intervals between them.

My past has come and gone so gracefully, I must say. Looking back in my own chapter book of my life, I am filled with wonderful memories and events I like to turn to in pictures and on pages folded in my book. 

Kerry and me in our front yard

My parents came to dinner the other night and my mom brought me an old silver, antique looking, picture frame. Instantly, when I laid eyes on it, memories from the house I grew up in led my mind to that page in my book.  I remember it and how lovely I always thought it was. It will forever remind me of my mother. Which makes me think of my own memory of her. Her hands soft and delicate, her smell, like fresh baby powder and  pink Oil of Olay facial lotion. She has a distinct smell that holds the smell of my mommy. The smell of warmth and comfort. Every time I see her and hug her that smell brings me to a folded page in my book, of when I was a child.  A page that is folded at the corner for me to always turn to when I hug her, or think of her, or see her picture. 

Home made vegetable soup with a little bit of 
Thanksgiving turkey

I guess that's the amazing thing about our past and how we are able to hold onto things such as smells, that can take us back to that page we have creased to return to. 

In my present, my book is wide open and being illustrated as each second goes by.  My girls are coloring it so bright and full of color and energy. Some pages are calm with cool, serene colors and other pages are bold and outstanding! The pictures are so unique and in depth with tiny details that bring my book to life. 

Reese is 7 months old now. How did that happen? My timeline seems to be written out in bold and a huge font. It is so big and moving so fast. I don't want to jinks it but, I think she is sleeping though the night! :-) She seems in a deeper sleep and she isn't as restless as she used to be a couple weeks ago. I have been putting her to bed earlier and then I give her a bottle before I go to bed, she doesn't seem to fully wake up to eat, but she's up eating and then instantly falls back into her sweet dreams up to the moon. 
If she fusses, I wait outside her door, and she usually stops right away. Or ill go in and pop the Binky in her mouth and she is soothed. 

Maybe since she's older now, she is able to sleep better? Maybe she was going through a growth spurt and wasn't sleeping well because of it. 
What ever it is, I am happy I am getting 5 hrs of straight sleep, but when I think of my baby and how big she's getting, I am crumbled a little inside. She doesn't need me in the middle of the night anymore, she is not waking because she wants her mama. She looks bigger to me too! Her tiny hands still remain tiny but are slowly getting bigger. She's more active, rolling ALL over, working on making the move to crawl. Although I don't think she needs to crawl, she is doing just fine achieving her goals that are within reach.  She is also so proud, another sign of growth that she has developed. She is realizing more and almost seems like she knows  things I don't. She might, being on the ground and her tummy all the time, she is figuring out how to get on with life in this active stage as well as results from cause and effect. She also grins a sweet innocent grin that says 'look at me mommy, look what I can do!'.

Riley is growing and changing too. Each day is a new milestone for her. Since I jinks-ed myself with her outbursts since my post on the rules, she has been acting out the last week. I try to remember what it could be that is causing her to act out, and then I pick each tiny detail apart to try and help her... This job is so important, I need to be here at home for them. Our girls need us, to show them how to get through this hard life. I am so so so grateful I can be the one to be home showing them the ways to life. It is the most rewarding job I have ever worked.... 

Riley wanted to go to this park so she could go on the monkey bars for the first time all by herself. She got out of the car and ran over by herself and monkeyed herself all the way across!

She was so happy! She was so proud of herself. She accomplished something she had been thinking about for a few days. Did it all on her own. She did it consistently until she had no more strength left in her little arms, it was cute to watch. :-D 

      
I have had to be more diligent in my ways and not let anything slide. Being on top of her actions is helping me be on top of my actions, and what it takes to be a respectful human being. It's so crazy how each minute in each day, I have to be a role model, in every situation, because she is watching my every move. I also like to explain with words what I am doing so she can understand not just through my actions. I have to explain things that are going to happen before they happen, like what we are going to do next. Children, not just mine, but all children need to know what's to come ahead, it helps them remain calm and know what to expect so there are no unknowns or sudden changes, which can lead to an out burst of confusion. Like grown ups, children need a routine and schedule to feel on track and aware of what is going to happen. Which leads me to my future.

We took a drive to look at Christmas lights, Riley loved seeing each house and how they were all different, this is going to be a fun tradition. So much wonder and happiness in her big blue eyes.

The unknown, some plans made already on the calendar in my book,  and the rest left to blossom and grow into a new form and shape of memories and pictures on my blank pages. I am excited for holidays that come at the same time every year, the old and new events that come with the changes in season. The new traditions I am going to create with my amazing family. I look forward to watching my girls grow each new second, and to filling up my chapter book with giant aspirations that will be filled and jotted down for my pages to be creased so I can turn back to in time. 

Christmas craft. We collected these spiky balls from the park and made them sparkle with glitter for the sparkly holiday to come.

An afternoon walk turned into a jog.

With our babies :-)

To visit the roosters on the next block

Another exciting thing to come is our family room! It is almost finished! :-) 

I couldn't be more excited to have more space, for us all. We have lived in this house almost 3 years and the amount of time and hard work Marc has put into that wonderful, spacious room is at arms reach of coming to an end! Such a good feeling of something to look forward to, the new room with life to be lived in. We are so lucky to have all the wonderful things we have. A warm, perfect sized home, healthy babies, food, income, warm clothes and love that floats all over this seriously wonderful life. 

Growth

Strength

New seasons and new light