Autumn

I am so eager to post every day. If only I could sit and write a book about my thoughts. I have so many different thoughts about life and each precious moment. They race through my head and I so wish I could write down everything I am thinking, I think they would sell ;-)

Life has so many different opportunities and unremarkable moments it's so hard not to take mental photographs. But being able to hold on to each one in-defiantly seems impossible, unless we could actually photograph every little detail we favor so much. Being able to write about my thoughts gives me the chance to think about the little moments I want to hold onto forever. 

Yesterday I took my girls out into the crisp, fresh air for a mid-day stroll down the street and back. Usually we get to play at the park for a couple hours, weather permitting, I like to get them outside everyday to soak up the freshness. Yesterday, though, I took a hold  of this beautiful time of year and what November has to offer. 
As we walked, I embraced the crisp air on the little part of my exposed skin. It felt like a touch of childhood hitting my cheeks. Every season seems to bring back a part of my life that I love so much, it is such a unique feeling about life. How we are able to recall such instances or how certain things, scents or sounds remind us of the past, or maybe, without knowing, our future. 

Riley's hair blew with the wind under her purple pom pom hat. As she slowly road her bike up the road and stopped at every other house to look and admire different details in nature, I froze time to watch her intent looks. Her life is so young and open to new memories, questions and details to be seen for the first time. My life is getting older and I too am open to new memories and new details for the first time. Details to be shared with my daughters, through their eyes. 

This morning as I unloaded the dishes from the washer, while Reese was in her chair playing with her block, after her oatmeal breakfast, I glanced over as I usually do and then I stopped. She was watching my every move. Reaching down to grab a dish then reaching up to put it away. I kept looking at her the whole time, with a smile on my face, wondering what she was thinking as she watched me in awe. She is studying me and  the chore of unloading the dishes and learning where they go, because maybe, she knows she will have to learn how to do this one day too. 

With each little chore, I try to stop and saver the moment. It's not just a chore I am doing it is a new way of doing it every time. Yes, it's routine and I usually do it the same everyday, but by savoring the moments that come with my job, I am finding a new way of living. I am loving my life for what it is and how I am living it with my girls. Finding new ways to make it all fun and noteworthy with them. 

Blogging lets me connect with my inner thoughts and soul. I ponder my life and the depths of it more and more, digging and picking at my own brain for things I can expand on and write. To me, I am finding a greater connection with my life and more realness in each day. I am not just living and being I am becoming more in touch with who I really am. 
I also think having children has helped me realize these thoughts I am having. Being able to see the world through their eyes gives me a chance to start over and see what I have been missing. Being a mom gives me the opportunity to slow down and tune in to living fully with so much love to give, that I never knew possible. 

When did you last jump in a puddle?

October 2012

Halloween 2012